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By Fadia Bint Ismail


Every Ramadan i write a story reflecting upon my Ramadan and every year i re look at it and realize that Alhamdulilah every new Ramadan has brought more and more Khair and Barakah.

We are in the last ten days of Ramadan Alhamdulilah. I can truly say that this Ramadan has been totally different for me, spiritually, mentally and emotionally.

Going into Ramadan i had so many things i wanted to achieve and focus on and of course life plays a huge part of how things will pan out and i needed to find a constant balance especially when you work full-time and study part time i needed to find time in my day too do other things that did not include Dunyah activities.

Whether it may be , more time in Nemaaz (especially Nafl prayers like Tahajjud , Salaatul Hajaah , Tasbeeh etc) , Reading Islamic books or reading Quraan.

As hard as it sounds i think having the right intentions plays a big part, and if you do not have the right intentions nothing will go smoothly.

One thing we need to remind ourselves about continuously is that everyday is never the same , and every Ramadan can never be the same , imagine for a second if everyday was the same then how else would we push ourselves to do even better.

For me when i think of life in general i see my Deen as primary and everything else in my life is secondary, and i think when you continue to have this in your heart and mind life will be more bearable and you will appreciate things more because you know that Allah is control of all things.

This Ramadan has really emphasized this point even more for me and has strengthen my Yaqeen in Allah even more.

This Ramadan has truly been a month of deeper reflection and there are some days when i am driven to tears because of how different it feels and part of me cannot explain the feeling but it is a feeling of being completely immersed , like even if so many bad things occurred it just flows over you like nothing , like there no effect, like Allah is shielding you completely from all bad things and he is protecting you.

In this last 10 tens of Ramadan let us all focus on Thikr and calling unto Allah in his blessed beautiful names and sincerely ask for his forgiveness and to lead us onto the Siratul Mustaqeem.

This is a reminder first and foremost to myself




By Fadia Bint Ismail



I listened too a few lectures by Mufti Menk on various topics in relation to contentment, happiness and sadness, his words were so profound and it till this day it stuck with me ever since then.

I think the one thing many of us suffer from is sadness and finding true happiness and contentment and what do we do when we become sad ? did you ever think about it ?

So after listening to the lectures i realized, what is it that we need to do when we feel sad. Well first you need to reflect on the key critical things in your life that may be the reason why we feel sad or depressed.

  • How is your relationship with Allah
  • How is your Nemaaz (Salaah)
  • Have you lost focus (This could be another cause of why we feel sad when we dont realize and remind ourselves that this life is temporary)
  • Are you developing your link with Allah daily
  • Appreciation , are we thanking Allah everyday for our blessings  (Alhamdulilah Ala Kulli Haal)
  • Have you drifted away from Allah
  • How is your heart , is it clean or do you harbor hatred

These are just a few things that could be lacking in our lives which will eventually cause us to become sad and depressed because we do not work on our relationship with Allah daily.

We need to realize that everything is by the Will of Allah , Good or Bad and when a believer calls out to Allah , Allah will respond.

Sometimes we are searching for contentment and happiness but we are looking for it in all the wrong things because contentment is only found in Allah

Think about this for a second…a Believer and a Non Believer will both be in pain but the difference is that when a believer is in pain he will have faith and will be able to face that difficulty knowing that Allah is his guide. A Non Believer will not be able to face it. Realize that hardship is a mercy from Allah……And even if you do not get what you want keep on asking and if you still do not get it then realize that Allah has something even better planned

This is a reminder first and foremost to myself


By Fadia Bint Ismail



You ever get that feeling when you do something or someone tells you something and it is as though it was meant to be in your path ? One particular thing happened to me recently , It may mean absolutely nothing but when i thought about it deeply and researched and understood it i realized this was something that was meant to happen….

So i sat speaking to someone and they mentioned a particular verse too me from the Quran , a verse from one of my favourite surah’s , Surah Ar Rahman and the verse was “Fabbi Ayyi-Allah i – Rabbikuma Tukathibani” Then which of the favours. Of your Lord will you deny” and so after this i never gave it much thought but then i started doing a painting with this verse and it just resonated more and more in my heart, and then a week or two after that i once again had a random conversation with someone else on general Islamic knowledge, Umrah and Hajj and then as the conversation ended the same verse was recited too me. SubanAllah….!!! if that is not Allah’s way of speaking too me then i dont know but my heart feels strange at this point.

I am actually really wondering what it all means but then i looked deeper into the meaning of that verse and tried to understand Allah’s words.

Perhaps Allah is speaking to me , Then which of the favors of your Lord will you deny …..I think for me Allah is reminding us not to forget the bounties and favors that surround us. HE created the heavens and the earth and surely HE is all knowing , All seeing and that no matter what we are faced with daily we should remember that Allah has bestowed great favors upon us and if someone harms, or oppressors you surely Allah will take them too account for their actions.

I know sometimes we loose faith in certain things when we feel bogged down with what life throws at us , but this life is after all Temporary and it will never be filled with happiness, happiness ONLY lies in being with Allah  and being in Jannah, that is when we will never feel any sadness.

This is what that one verse truly means for me and many of us will have different interpretations.

This is a reminder first and foremost for myself

I make Dua that this Ramadan is a great blessing to the entire Muslim Ummah


By Fadia Bint Ismail

I came across a short post i read that said

“Sincerity has been known to change a persons course in life. It has been known to elevate prayers and deflect harm miraculously. It has been known to put you in the path of others and also put those you need on your path. It has been known to shake mountains so no obstacles stand in your way and it has been known to shake trees, so you always have provision. Sincerity is all your really need to make it through this world”

When ever i sit i read this daily as a reminder that all one really needs in life is sincerity. I think the most difficult part of life is trying to find those that are truly sincere and there are moments when you isolate yourself from everyone , from all the negativity and all those who could potentially hurt you or harm you in some way or another, but then i think sincerity starts with yourself first and even if there are a thousand people in this Dunyah who are evil or have no sincerity at all i think as a person as a believing Muslim no matter what we should always be sincere even to those who have wronged us.

It is like they say , if someone has wronged you do not let your heart become hardened, let your heart remain soft that is when you know you sincerely have Taqwa and Sincerity in your heart.

Even when people try to break your spirit and have no words of encouragement and you feel like your entire self is imploding and you are so over taken with emotion from mere harsh words we should try to always remain calm and sincere and to realize that Allah is testing those who harm us and even ourselves in the manner in which we handle others, and when we remain patient and endure and persevere surely Allah’s mercy will come.

So be Sincere at all times NO matter who tries to break you!!!

A Reminder first and foremost to myself sincerity-and-truth

Daily Struggles

By Fadia Bint Ismail


If you live with how you are going to fair on the Day of Qiyaamah Allah will take you into his mercy , so never loose hope in the mercy of Allah

Those words play in my head daily , but i struggle sometimes with keeping negative thoughts under wraps by eliminating them with positive thoughts

Everyday is a struggle and i guess when we are faced with difficult things , Allah is shaping us into a better person and that is one thought i keep in mind whenever i feel depressed

There is not a single human being on this planet who could say, oh my life is perfect , I do not have negative thoughts or struggles. Let me tell you , you are only kidding yourself!! You may not be facing any difficulties but rest assured that Allah will test us even when we have a lot and even when we have very little. This test is a continuous affirmation that we should only rely solely in Allah and that all abundance and risq is only from Him.

I think one of the greatest attachments a lot of us have , is being attached to people and i am also guilty of this. When we depend to much on people we allow them to have a space in our heart which should only be filled with the Love of Allah. When we find ourselves heart broken , or disappointed with those attachments trust me you feel like you crumbling and your heart feels like its breaking into a million pieces. Now if you continuously make a conscious decision to say La ilaha illAllah daily reminding ourselves that there is NO God worthy of worship except Allah your heart will find peace and You will find inner peace to let go of all those attachments you and I are holding onto….

Another thing we are also guilty of is comparing our lives to those around us. You look at those that are married and you think why am i not married, You look at those that have a successful job or a wonderful life and you think why am i struggling. Have you ever thought that even though they have all those things that secretly those people are also suffering but in their own way. They may be unhappy in their marriage, or unhappy in their job and we will not know and that is between them and Allah. I know it is hard to have a positive thought in this circumstance, I know the struggle but we should start being grateful that what ever we have Allah has given it to us and it is filled with immense blessings , And maybe Allah knows that if he had to give us more it may over burden us or destroy us, so Allah gives us things when the time is right for us Inshallah and Allah will never give us something that we cannot bare.

I think the key to attaining contentment and inner peace is too fill our lives with positive things. There are a few things that i do daily that helps me get through each day and believe me that its a daily battle but we need to have firm believe and faith in Allah too guide us each and every day Inshallah. So i will share a few of my daily tasks

  1. Wake up for Tahajjud , and if you cannot wake up on your own set your alarm (eventually when it becomes a part of your daily life believe me Allah will wake you up without your alarm going off, have you ever heard the Athaan in your ear and you wake up and its not the Athaan, this can happen trust me)
  2. Make Salaatul Hajaah daily if there is a need you would like Allah to fulfill
  3. Recite your Kuls 3 times after each Nemaaz
  4. Spend more time in Sujood and the weight of this world will become lighter
  5. Recite Surah Yaseen after each Nemaaz and before Fajr and you will be happier the entire day
  6. Read self help books (I Suggest Islamic books as there are many Quranic verses and Hadith that can help you)
  7. Purify your intentions and belief in Allah constantly by taking deep breaths and closing your eyes imagining only positive thoughts
  8. Surround yourself with good people who constantly remind you of Allah (And if you are feeling let down by people, then be with those that bring the best out in you)
  9. Thikr every evening after Esha (I recite Durood 11 times, Astagfirullah 11 times then Iyyaaka na’abudu wa iyyaaka nasta’een and Durood 11 times thereafter) , this was recommended to me by my Moulana
  10. And most importantly recite Quraan daily and reflect on its meanings (What i like to do also is close my eyes and go to any page and recite a verse and then read its meaning, this will help you overcome whatever you are feeling because through that verse Allah gives guidance)

Those are my daily tasks, You do not have to do all of it at once everyday maybe choose one to do daily but most importantly stick to your 5 times Nemaaz daily and try and make it on time

This is a reminder first and foremost to myself and I hope Inshallah that whoever is struggling with everyday life and issues you may be facing that Allah puts goodness and ease in your path Inshallah


By Sheikh Muhammad Al-Gazali
At a time where i kind of felt i was at a low point in my life i needed something to lift my faith and give me strength and even though our deen is there as our strength we are human and we have flaws and our Emaan gets weak and there are temptations but what matters is that we recognize when something is lacking in ourselves instead of allowing external sources to lead us astray 

And this brought me to a book i read called stop worrying relax and be happy….

This book explains the importance of how our minds is the source of our behaviour and direction according to our thoughts and feelings 

Sheikh Muhammad Al Ghazli uses beautifully thr words of Allah and our beloved Nabi Muhammad (SAW) in each chapter to help the reader find inner peace and to be able to contexualise how they are feeling 

One of the defeciencies of man is the fact that his present is weighed down by future burdens 

So with those words his kind of saying that the thing that causes us the most grief is that we live in the future continously and it causes us to live in agony 

Our main business is not to see what lies dimly at a distance but to do what lies clearly at hand

The book goes on by explaining to us about taqdeer (divine decree) and how life is what we make of it and how to renew your life 

I firmly recommend this book to everyone who is seeking comfort in their life whatever struggles you may go through this book is for everyone 


Author: Ahmad Javid 
I recently read a very interesting book called SUFI LIGHT it basically explains how to connect with your inner self and to rid yourself from the restlessness that you may feel.

It took me a while to read this book because i wanted to understand the importance of meditation and how it could help me through my daily struggles.

But first the book speaks about our soul and the journey it takes

“Death is the end of our journey through this material world ,yet it is the beginning of the new infinite life and souls journey towards its real source of origin”

So what is the main purpose of this book ..well it explores the secrets of human and divine love and interaction through meditation on the name of Allah. (SWT)

“I am as my servant thinks of me and I am with him when he remembers Me. If he remembers Me in private. I Remember him with in Myself. If he remembers Me in company. I Remember him in better company”

Just a few wise words from the book that catches my attention and really makes me yearn to become closer to our Rabb.

“One cannot achieve perfection without knowledge because it is the means by which one arrives at the realization and affirmation of the oneness of the Lord of all the worlds”

“Inner knowledge is attained by removing the veils especially of the lower self from the mirror of the heart and cleaning and polishing it by the rememberance of God”

I will end off with one last quote from the book…i suggest everyone goes and reads this book if you want to find peace within yourselves through meditation.

“It is of vital importance to know that presence of mind and heart is mandatory in devotion,submission,commemoration, and meditation”

Smile even through hardtimes

The fuel of your strength and the power is your own journey of iman, faith, because Allah is the power, the owner of power and the owner of everything.
The more you get closer, the more he changes your weakness to your strength, your bad habits
into good habits from being defeated to being victorious. And this is only by Allah.


Finding Your Inner Self



By Fadia Bint Ismail

It has definitely been a while since i have posted on my blog but alas here i am

I thought hard and long about what exactly i am going too write about and i think the best thing lately has been My journey and the road that it led me too finding my inner self.

Sometimes we are all distracted by the things of this Dunyah that we fail to realize our true purpose in life and that is too constantly seek the pleasure of Our Maker , Our Lord, Our One and only Allah (SWT)

So how did i get here…Well firstly having complete Yaqeen in Allah (SWT) and knowing that whatever is meant to reach me will reach me and whatever is not meant to reach me will never reach me. What is meant for you nobody can take it away if Allah (SWT) willed it for you.

It took me a long while to get to where I am today, struggles whether it be financially, emotionally, spiritually you name it we all face it so it should not be this embarrassing thing we do not speak about because trust me there are others out there that are facing the exact same thing as you or even worse. One thing i have learnt is that patience is the key to every thing and i remembered i had little too probably no patience. So how do you overcome this struggle?

Well secondly find things that will put your heart and mind at ease, whether it is reading a book, a hobby or some other therapeutic avenue that will help you in managing your inner self and allowing you to become more calming and patient.

My choice of therapy was painting and writing Islamic poetry i could channel all my feelings and even frustrations into it and Alhamdulilah i can actually say that doing that has brought tremendous value not only to my life but too others.

For me the biggest part of my Journey was knowing that i had so many people who cared for me, who loved me and encouraged me too keep on going and too have total Sabr (Patience)…..We definitely all need those types of people in our lives..You know the ones who constantly remind us of Allah (SWT).

My Journey has just begun……

All Praise is due to Allah Alone, and He is Sufficient for us All




Artwork For Sale

Artist: Fadia Bint Ismail

Painting: Acrylic on Canvas Board (15X30)

Price: R300

La Ilaha Illah Allah


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