By Fadia Bint Ismail
I feel like I am on an
Everlasting wave which won’t set onto the shore.
I hold out my hands trying to grasp at what is ahead of me, I cannot hold onto it.
I am chasing a shadow.
Chasing what is not meant to be.
My Heart feels tortured.
But I smile silently but inside I am dying.
The turner and controller of hearts can only ease what I feel.
I close my eyes.
Supplicating to the one most merciful to free my heart and fill my soul with his love.
O Allah, Al Kabir (The Most Great) Give me that which you want for me.
O Allah, Al Muqtadir (The Powerful) only you know what is to be; only you can ease the pain that I feel.
O Allah, Al Hadi (The Guide) Guide me to everlasting peace; make me amongst the As-Sabirun.
I am riding on this wave.
Al Waliy (The Protector) protect me, watch over me.
Let your name be the last words I speak before……
I take My Last Breathe.